4 months ago

I had my last CT scan 4 months ago and am due my 4th scan since October 2006 tomorrow.
I don’t like this part as I have to wait to get the results of the scan and am always thinking that there maybe a little miracle that might happen when I get the results or that Theo has decided to grow. I have to be realistic and I know deep down that Theo (my cancer) isn’t going to shrink and I can only hope he has not grown.
If That is the case, the next examination will be an X-ray. I will be happier with that as the fluid dye injection is uncomfortable.
My Oncologist is wonderful and is very positive, I sometimes wonder if he is telling me the truth as I want to know everything.
I am sure he is truthful but my experience last year was not good.
I was told in December 2006 that I would have 6 - 9 months to live and no amount of excercise, diet change or lifestyle would change the outcome.
My 9 month is up in September and I am still here.
How wrong he was,and I told him in no uncertain terms that I would not except his diagnosis, Hence I went for a second opinion!
I am not prepared for some random oncologist who doesn’t know me that well to give up on me.
I have not given up and I will walk with Theo for as long as I can. He has been a good friend this past 9 months and I hope it stays that way for a very long time.