CT scan day

I went in to have my scan today and made a right fool of myself. I burst into tears. I think it is because it all comes back to me, the reason for the scan,the anger at having this preventable disease and trying to be happy when inside I am falling to peices. It may also have something to do with it being a year since I lost my dad and I miss him so much.

I still have problems believing it is a year ago he left this earth.
I left some flowers at the cemetry in memory of him. I chose Gladioli as I have a wonderful memory that relates to my dad and the humble Gladd. I can’t remember how old I was, must have been about 10 or 12, and it was my birthday. I was having something to eat in the kitchen and in walks my dad with a Gladioli. “Happy birthday” he said as it gave to me. I have never forgotten that so when I saw them at the florists I had to have them. I don’t know when I get the results for the scan. I hope it will be very soon.