Feeling sad

I am on the last of my rotational shift today and will have 3 days off before I start again.
I felt so sad today, feeling very sorry for myself. We had a fund raising awareness day at work. It was all geared to breast cancer, Which is a great charity and a wonderful thing to do.
I am not against any fund raising as it is needed and is not always supported by the goverment. I bought some raffle tickets and felt absolutely gutted. Why do I have to die? Why can’t I and people with the same cancer as me be afforded the same chance as someone with another more high profile cancer?
Unfortunatly this cancer doesn’t affect the rich and famous, if it did, it would be high profile too. That doesn’t mean I want someone to go through all this because I don’t but Mesothelioma and all asbestos diseases need a face and a voice, something that it can be related to.
Steve McQueen was a high profile sufferer and not a lot is heard about that.
I have decided to do raise awareness on Mesothelioma action day and hopefully get the same support as the breast cancer charity did. This isn’t sour grapes, I just want to live as do others suffering from Mesothelioma and all associated asbestos diseases.