The mummy diaries

I have just finished watching a programme on channel 4 called the mummy diaries.

http://www.channel4.com/health/microsites/M/mummy_diaries/

It is so beautifully made and has 5 very brave women talking about their illnesses and their families.
I broke down while watching it as it is something I need to face up to. I have to talk to my little boy about my illness and about the inevitable. It is something I cannot bring myself to do as I do not want to leave him. Maybe in my mind, if I don’t tell him, I will stay. I don’t want to admit it as I don’t want to go anywhere. I want to be here for all of my children. I want to see my talented, beautiful daughter acheive her dream. I want to see my handsome, 18 year old son get a job and become independant and succeed in life and I want to see my gorgeous little boy grow up into an amazing adult.
Why is life so cruel? why now? why ever?
This series is so touching and I will be watching it again as it will help me talk to children about the future and what is going to be one of the hardest things we will have to go through.