thinking of the future

We had a lady in work today who was selling usbourne books. I had a look at the books and picked out some for my little boy for christmas, he loves joke books especially the unfunny ones : ) One book caught my eye, It was a book about growing up and on the cover were questions.
How will I have my first shave?
Why are girls different?
What is testostorone?
I thought I would get it for him and then it hit me……Will I be here when he has these questions?
I left work and went to my sister’s for a good, strong hug and to bawl my eyes out. It isn’t often that I get a wobbly moment but this was a major one.
My sister was wonderful and told me I have every reason to feel like I do and listened to me blubber on (thanks Sis x).
I really hope I am, I am going to put it in his memory box as it will be really helpful to him anyway. I may well be here and will definatley help him with his questions, although, I do have to fight him for a kiss!

There are really lovely responses on the newspaper site this evening. Thank you for taking the time to write in. I appreciate it and all these negative comments will only spur me on to raise more awareness of Mesothelioma and Asbestos.