Back to work

I am returning to work today as I want to try and pull myself back together after the news I got on Friday.
I feel lke I am mourning a loss, absoutely gutted. I honestly did feel that I had gained some of my future back for it to be snatched away again. i can’t give up on me and am going to try and concentrate on being positive and sailing into July feeling like I do now.
I have to do this for my children, they keep me going.
If it wasn’t for them I would probably give up now.
I don’t want to fail, I want to live and that is the frustrating part because nothing is around at the moment to combat this enemy.