Heart break

I had to do one of the most upsetting things I will ever have to do in my life, I had to make a decision about Patch, She is so ill and it is cruel to allow her to continue on as she is.

She isn’t eating, cannot support herself and tries so hard to drag herself to her litter tray.

I took her back to the vets this morning, My friend, Helen, was a great support to me.

Patch’s kidneys had failed and there was nothing the vet could do to turn it around. She was so weak this morning that she didn’t even have enough energy to dispute being picked up and put in her cat box.

She has been such a wonderful friend and companion, she has always made sure I was hugged when I had a down day by making a point of getting on my lap and purring at my lowest moments.

I had to try and support her at one of her lowest moments. It was so heart breaking to make this decision.

To do one of the kindest things for her felt so awful and not wanting her to leave was being selfish. I couldn’t keep her going until she was ready as it would have been so undignified for her and she didn’t deserve that.
Something amazing happened when she was drifting off, the sun shone through the window over her and it felt so peaceful. The sun stayed out all day which did make it a liitle better to deal with as if it was raining it would have emulated more misery than already being suffered.

Patch,

My Friend, my faithful and loyal companion,
I hope you can forgive me as I did what I thought was right and stopped your suffering.
I miss you so much, my heart is breaking.
You were always there for me at my lowest ebb and I hope you can understand that the family and I only wanted what was best for you and to let you know it was alright to leave.

I hope you meet Tiger as we all know how much you missed him and never recovered from that loss. You will find my Dad who will love you as much as we did.

Be at peace dear friend and know that we all love you so much and miss you terribly.

I love you Poshie,

Always and forever,

Debbie x x