CT result number 5

Not good news …..Theo has grown.
I feel so gutted and let down as I don’t feel any different. My oncologist was not his usual positive self and asked me how I felt was I more breathless, had I lost weight? I have lost weight but I put that down to no sugar, dairy and lower yeast intake. I was around 10 stone and he thinks I am 9 stone now. I will weigh myself to find out tomorrow. He told me it had grown since the last scan which was 4 months ago.
My oncologist was also telling me about some 18 year olds who get melanoma and about a local man who was killed in a car accident yesterday and made me aware they were younger than me. I got the feeling he was telling me I should be grateful for what I have.
I am grateful but that does not mean I have to give up like I feel he is.
I don’t feel very breathless, same as before and feel very well. I am active and am not going to accept this as I didn’t with the oncologist before him who told me I had 6 - 9 months.
I told him how angry I was that there was no cure and I was expected to sit back and accept it which, I feel, is so cruel. This is no fault of my own as it is no fault of every other person who get this Awful disease.
I need to get myself positive again. I have a cat that is dying and have to sort out a new house and all the stresses that go with it.
I am still trying to get my head around it all and it is difficult.

Just another informative link from Suzanne, who finds such great links. Thanks Suzanne, keep them coming.

http://www.thisisthenortheast.co.uk/display.var.1967948.0.cancer_victims_launch_film_bid_to_change_law.php